Courage

I will admit, there are times when I feel totally down and out.
Everyday, passes as an agony and the future is bleak and full of unknown.

At this time, when the fear and despair overcomes you.
The scripture gave me strength to continue.

Matthew 10:29-31New International Version (NIV)
²⁹ Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? Yet not one of them will fall to the ground outside your Father’s care.^{[a] 30} And even the very hairs of your head are all numbered. ³¹ So don’t be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows

If sparrows who are much smaller than you and live in the wilderness, is able to survive and live happily. Then what is there is fear?

If everything is prepared for you, then as long as you do what is required, you will not have any problems.

https://quotefancy.com/quote/2902/Napoleon-Courage-isn-t-having-the-strength-to-go-on-it-is-going-on-when-you-don-t-have

The Lord will provide, when we follow his teachings, we will prosper and there is nothing to fear.
What is fear?
When there is unknowns, and unpreparedness. When we do not make all the preparation, is unable to make changes when we have the opportunity, then we will feel that Life is miserable.

How can Life be a chore? We should be realistic, that in this short span of time we have, we are making the most of it.

If even sparrows can do it, why not us? We are more valuable than them.

https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Matthew+10%3A29-31&version=NIV
http://biblehub.com/commentaries/matthew/10-29.htm

On the road to recovery

In the not so many days from my breakdown, I have often looked back and shudder. At the what ifs, and the what have nots.

I am on the road to recovery, for myself and my inner soul.
Every day, I pray to God, that I have the strength to continue on.

It seems that Life is full of potholes, and when it rains, it pours.
Whether it be good fortune or bad, everything seems to come together.

To be frank, I am fatigued. Fatigued by the constant quarrels that surround and embroil me in their midst. I am confused, what is happening?
There seems to be no place to step upon, and every where there are little whirl pools of disaster. I am standing on a tight rope, yet I have no choice but to advance.

I wish to there to be  a time for me to rest and think, to replot my direction. The reality remains that the World has other thoughts and persist on hounding me.

Where can I place my foot upon?

The saving grace of God. Please save me from this mire of doubts, and guide me across this dangerous land.

Where will I find myself after this? I don't know, and I hope that there is a place I can rest before the next race.

The motivation to continue

How can I last for another five more years? I do not know.
I feel the need to be reenergised every morning and find meaning behind my work.
My soul feels like a plant that has gone too long without water.
However, we all have our commitments and our debts, so I have to remain employed.
The world is rich and at the same time, money does not just grow on trees.
In order to provide for those who depend on my income, I have to continue plodding along.

Anyone who does not provide for their relatives, and especially for their own household, has denied the faith and is worse than an unbeliever. – 1 Timothy 5:8

Now, I can pray for my debts to be absolved and think that with no obligation to pay for my debts, I can be free as a bird. However, I must not forget that a man still must eat bread. Even after my debts are absolved, I will still need to work to survive.

There are still responsibilities to be held. Responsibilities to those who are dependent on me, and though I am tired, I cannot give up. Even though, I may cut down on my food and drink the same cannot be said of my family. The babies, still need their milk and the elderly need their gruel.

However, forcing myself to continue to work when my heart is not in it, is putting its drain on me.

Perhaps I am foolish.

For Psalm 127 says,

¹ Unless the Lord builds the house,
    the builders labor in vain.
Unless the Lord watches over the city,
    the guards stand watch in vain.
² In vain you rise early
    and stay up late,
toiling for food to eat—
    for he grants sleep to^[a] those he loves.

 

But I will never know. If the work is available then I have to grab it. Who knows what tomorrow will bring?

What joy and laughter? What providence? What sorrow?

There are just too many unknowns.

No matter what, I just feel so tired and fatigued. All I can do is to move along and complete my dues. Perhaps then I will be paid for all the work that I have done.

References

http://biblehub.com/commentaries/1_timothy/5-8.htm

Life of Faith

A life of Faith is not easy to go through.

Life itself is not easy to navigate. We all live with baggages, whether it is ours or from people around us.

And Faith is not something that is easy to keep.

In many cases, we find ourselves struggling to even take a breath and hope for it all to end.
However, what good does it do?

There must be a reason that We are placed here and given the chance to live.

What can be our guiding light?

The bible can give us a good guide, eventually we have to make our own decisions based on our own understanding.

Our faith will direct us.

Are we going in the right direction with every decision that we make?

To tell the truth I do not know.

However, I believe that as long as we are willing to learn and make mistakes, reason and faith will pull us through.